Debilitating

The morning light was squinting
Through the bedroom shades
Few clouds in a sunny sky
The birds singing their serenades

Earl Grey in the teapot
A light breakfast prepared
Saying hello to the day
I thought I was prepared

It happened again
Without any warning
The monster reared its head
Leaving me in mourning

A verbal attack came
From nowhere I could see
Blindsided as usual
While I was drinking my tea

I said I was feeling better
Not a complaint or a question
Yesterday experiencing something minor
A simple statement, not aggression

Then how do I become
the target of your onslaught?
I didn’t do what you suggested
Is that really a fault?

Your words of anger
So hurtful and debilitating
You are angry because what?
I feel like it’s baiting

You are looking for a fight
I never know why
I am so totally unprepared
I have no battle cry

Your reactions to statements
Are so unbelievably strange
You attack and become the victim
Setting a scene to derange

Trying to wrap my arms
Around your state of mind
Incognizant of my own pain
It is you I have to find

Know suggestions can be useful
They are offered to awaken
Like opinions they cost nothing
Don’t be surprised if not taken

If I need help I would ask
If I need a doctor I would deduce
If I need support I would expect
What I don’t need is verbal abuse

Christine Bolton – Poetry for Healing ©

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  7 comments for “Debilitating

  1. paeansunplugged
    August 3, 2018 at 2:48 pm

    Verbal abuse can be more corrosive than physical abuse. Heartrending.

    • Christine Bolton
      August 3, 2018 at 2:50 pm

      Yes I agree. It slowly chips away at you.

  2. August 3, 2018 at 7:48 pm

    Beautifully heart breaking.

    • Christine Bolton
      August 3, 2018 at 7:57 pm

      Thank you 😊

  3. August 5, 2018 at 4:16 am

    Agree with the above comments .. sounds like a very unhealthy relationship that you would be best to escape … 🙁
    Don’t put up with it, you deserve better!

  4. Christine Bolton
    August 5, 2018 at 9:25 am

    A lot of my words are from ghosts in the past. Just every now and again one reminds me they are still around 😢

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