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To Hell With You Janus

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To Hell With You Janus

Janus you are two-faced
A god who wants it both ways
Pedantic and limiting
One face looking back,
your rush for us to end a year
One face looking forward,
you fill us with expectations
Promising us all that is new
is, as always, deceitful
 
This month named for you
has come to be
the darkest of my life
Your wicked vendetta 
year after year
has robbed me of a parent,
and given my husband to another.
You cursed a loved one
with brain tumors
and now you destroy
another marriage.
 
Casting your long shadows
on my life has ended
I return this month to you
For I do not see you anymore
I do not know you
I never knew you
There is no end or beginning
No old or new
 
It just is
 
 
 
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  33 comments for “To Hell With You Janus”

  1. revivedwriter
    January 5, 2022 at 5:07 pm

    I just read this again. <3

    • Christine Bolton
      January 5, 2022 at 10:35 pm

      Ah I remember this rant from last year! LOL. January always seems to do a number on me. I’m doing my best to keep my head down this month and not cause any waves. Maybe then Janus will leave me alone! I do hope you have a very happy, healthy and prosperous new year. Thanks for stopping by ☺️💕

  2. revivedwriter
    January 22, 2021 at 4:12 pm

    WOW!

    • Christine Bolton
      January 22, 2021 at 6:18 pm

      HaHa! January needs to stop messing with me LOL! 🙂

  3. Helen Dehner
    January 22, 2021 at 12:33 pm

    The only positive I can relate to Janus …. one month closer to Spring when it ends. Great write!!!!

    • Christine Bolton
      January 22, 2021 at 9:13 pm

      Yes that’s for sure Helen ☺️👍 thanks so much Helen 🥰

  4. Beverly Crawford
    January 22, 2021 at 11:55 am

    Certainly makes you want to tear that page out of y our calendar. Maybe that’s the solution!! Chin up!

    • Christine Bolton
      January 22, 2021 at 6:31 pm

      Thanks Bev. 💕 Yes that’s pretty much what I do and say every year. This month is not happening! 😦

  5. Ingrid
    January 22, 2021 at 8:00 am

    It sounds like January is to you what October is to me. I am sorry for your losses. I don’t blame you for wanting to see the back of Janus! The moment is all we ever have, quite right.

    • Christine Bolton
      January 22, 2021 at 6:48 pm

      Thank you Ingrid. That is so kind of you. We can’t help thinking this way. It is a coincidence but perhaps we shouldn’t’t let it rule our lives 😢

  6. Ron.
    January 22, 2021 at 7:31 am

    A solid & well-deserved rejection Christine. Awesome work.

    • Christine Bolton
      January 22, 2021 at 9:14 pm

      You are so kind Ron! Thank you 😊

  7. ben Alexander
    January 22, 2021 at 2:59 am

    has robbed me of a parent,
    and given my husband to another.
    You cursed a loved one
    with brain tumors
    and now you destroy
    another marriage.

    Wow… this is so painful to read. I’m so sorry, Christine.

    It feels trite after reading that to say that your poem was lovely.

    Yours,
    David

    • Christine Bolton
      January 29, 2021 at 10:07 pm

      I’ll take ‘lovely’ any day! Can you tell I’ve been keeping score with January?!! It’s a beast 😦 (This was in Spam too)

  8. M Jay Dixit
    January 22, 2021 at 12:26 am

    That’s dark, I could feel your rage through your words. I hope everything gets better 🙂 ~ Jay

    • Christine Bolton
      January 22, 2021 at 7:22 am

      Thanks so much Jay. Yes! It’s almost February ☺️👍

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  10. Sadje
    January 21, 2021 at 10:04 pm

    These are angry words Christine. Sending you warm hugs my friend

    • Christine Bolton
      January 21, 2021 at 10:48 pm

      You are so sweet my dear friend. I’m not upset or anything. It’s just January. Do you know how some people can be when the weather is dark and gray and they have trouble dealing with things? Well that’s how it is in January for me. Just lots of sad memories of things that happened in January over the years. Please don’t worry about me. I’m my usual happy self ☺️❤️

      • Sadje
        January 22, 2021 at 12:54 am

        That’s really good to know. I know certain times of the year invoke sadness and we find them difficult. Take care

      • Christine Bolton
        January 22, 2021 at 7:21 am

        Thank you my dear Sadje 💕

      • Sadje
        January 22, 2021 at 9:56 am

        You’re welcome 😉

  11. rothpoetry
    January 21, 2021 at 8:10 pm

    A powerful poem of rage and resignation…. Very well done… Keep your fire going… we need it in this time. Sorry for all your Janus losses!
    Dwight

    • Christine Bolton
      January 21, 2021 at 9:17 pm

      Thanks Dwight. Not to worry, I have a very Pollyanna attitude towards most things. I just hate January. However this year I must admit the 20th of January was a spectacular day!!! I know you know what I mean ☺️

      • rothpoetry
        January 21, 2021 at 9:20 pm

        Yes, I am glad to hear that!

  12. sanaarizvi
    January 21, 2021 at 7:29 pm

    Hell yeah! 💝💝 I feel like reciting your poem at the rooftop in regards to 2020! It was one hell of a year.. for all of us. A most powerful and kick-ass poem 🙂

    • Christine Bolton
      January 21, 2021 at 9:19 pm

      Hi Sanaa! Thank you for understanding. Yes it could apply to the whole of 2020, couldn’t it? ☺️💕

  13. ivor20
    January 21, 2021 at 4:59 pm

    Sadly powerful…. let us rotate fate, before next year’s date….

    • Christine Bolton
      January 21, 2021 at 5:57 pm

      I know right? A couple of years I have gone on vacation in January and it has helped to distract me 😑

  14. bushboy
    January 21, 2021 at 4:55 pm

    Goodness me Christine, has Janus really taken things from you over time and left nothing in return? Loved the words that conveyed feelings. Thanks for joining in 🙂

    • Christine Bolton
      January 21, 2021 at 5:59 pm

      Yes, it really has. As years go by it has become a thing, a foreboding, if you like. It made me wish I could hibernate so I wouldn’t have to put up with it! I can’t even complain ab out the weather as I live in SW Florida. January weather is quite pleasant. ☺️

      • bushboy
        January 21, 2021 at 6:34 pm

        Sure makes Christmas suck I guess. All I have seen from the US is snow images and tales. SW Florida sounds a bit like here on the North Coast of NSW Aust 🙂

      • Christine Bolton
        January 21, 2021 at 9:20 pm

        I have no problem with Christmas. Its always a special time … but January …. ugh! SW Florida is warm and tropical. Not bad at all ☺️👍

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