I remember writing the D’Verse Haibun a year ago and sharing that January had always been a sad time for me. Each year I was consumed with melancholy and regarded it as a black month.
Little did I now then that 2019 would be one of the worst years of my life. In January within days of writing that Haibun, an MRI on my husband’s brain showed two tumors and he was scheduled for immediate surgery. Thankfully they were removed successfully and not cancerous, but the healing process is long, life changing and precarious. In addition to other existing health issues and the sudden appearance of new ones, we have been on a mind-altering, life changing journey to hell and back.
One year later we are in a better place but still struggling with the process. I am determined to make January a month of new beginnings, change and hope. If you choose to turn off the light, then you will live in the darkness.
Life will always change Accept it, embrace it and Never let it go
As darkness falls who will light your shadows when the moon does not appear? Fearful and afraid of ghosts from the past who will protect you? It is still unclear
Who will guide you with wisdom through life’s temporal minefields? Lead you through fire and fury Harboring safely with love’s assuring shield
As the sky lights with daybreak clarity and possibility reign supreme Anxieties wane, fears subside and unnecessary nightmares become a daydream
