Tag: fear

In The Lonely Hours – Poem of the Month – December 2022

In The Lonely Hours

In the lonely hours
consumed with the things I cannot control
I drown in the sadness of my life
My decisions, right at the time
are haunting and daunting
Fearing no escape from the gate-less prison
of my choices
Guilt overwhelms as duty reigns supreme
When all seems lost
a caring person breaks the spell
on a mind paralyzed with fear
The words, so simple
but clarifying and freeing

Just walk away




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Song Lyric Sunday – Disturbia

The prompts for this week’s Song Lyric Sunday, hosted by Jim Adams, are Concern, Fear, Fret and Worry, courtesy of our friend Fandango from the blog This, That and The Other.

I have selected Disturbia by Rihanna.

The Song

This dance/pop track about being in a state of mental anguish was co-written by Rihanna’s boyfriend at the time Chris Brown, who also contributed backing vocals. The other co-writers were Andre Merritt and Robert Allen who together with Brown comprise his songwriting team, the Graffiti Artists. The trio also penned Brown’s hit “Forever.”

This was produced by Brian Kennedy who has also worked with Ciara (“My Love”), Jesse McCartney (“Runnin'”) and Menudo (“Inside Out”).

The video for this song was directed by acclaimed fashion photographer David LaChapelle. Among the other videos he has directed include “Dirrty,” “I’m With You” and “The Voice Within” all by Christina Aguilera.

This entered the Hot 100 at #18, the first single by the Barbadian singer to debut in the top half of the chart.

This dance-pop song was Rihanna’s fourth #1 hit on the Hot 100. It also topped the singles charts in a number of other countries, including Belgium, New Zealand and Turkey.

L.A. Reid – the head of Rihanna’s record company Def Jam, told MTV News that with this song, the Barbadian singer was taking control of her career. He explained that when Def Jam repackaged Rihanna’s Good Girl Gone Bad, the second single from the repackage was this song. Reid added: “It was the first time that Rihanna actually came to me and said, ‘Here’s the song I want to put out.’ She played me the song. That was her taking control, even on her last album. She understands what hits are, and she knows what she wants to say. She’s at that place where she can do it.”

The Lyrics

Bum bum be-dum bum bum be-dum bum
Bum bum be-dum bum bum be-dum bum
Bum bum be-dum bum bum be-dum bum
Bum bum be-dum bum bum be-dum bum

No more gas in the red
Can't even get it started
Nothing heard, nothing said
Can't even speak about it
All my life on my head
Don't want to think about it
Feels like I'm going insane
Yeah

It's a thief in the night
To come and grab you
It can creep up inside you
And consume you
A disease of the mind
It can control you
It's too close for comfort

Throw on your break lights
We're in the city of wonder
Ain't gonna play nice
Watch out, you might just go under
Better think twice
Your train of thought will be altered
So if you must falter be wise
Your mind is in Disturbia
It's like the darkness is the light
Disturbia
Am I scaring you tonight
Your mind is in Disturbia
Ain't used to what you like
Disturbia
Disturbia

Bum bum be-dum bum bum be-dum bum
Bum bum be-dum bum bum be-dum bum
Bum bum be-dum bum bum be-dum bum
Bum bum be-dum bum bum be-dum bum

Faded pictures on the wall
It's like they talkin' to me
Disconnectin' your call
Your phone don't even ring
I gotta get out
Or figure this shit out
It's too close for comfort

It's a thief in the night
To come and grab you
It can creep up inside you
And consume you
A disease of the mind
It can control you
I feel like a monster

Throw on your break lights
We're in the city of wonder
Ain't gonna play nice
Watch out, you might just go under
Better think twice
Your train of thought will be altered
So if you must falter be wise
Your mind is in Disturbia
It's like the darkness is the light
Disturbia
Am I scaring you tonight
Your mind is in Disturbia
Ain't used to what you like
Disturbia
Disturbia

Bum bum be-dum bum bum be-dum bum
Bum bum be-dum bum bum be-dum bum
Bum bum be-dum bum bum be-dum bum
Bum bum be-dum bum bum be-dum bum

Release me from this curse I'm in
I've been trying to maintain
But I'm struggling
You can't go, go, go
I think I'm going to oh, oh, oh

Throw on your break lights
We're in the city of wonder
Ain't gonna play nice
Watch out, you might just go under
Better think twice
Your train of thought will be altered
So if you must falter be wise
Your mind is in Disturbia
It's like the darkness is the light
Disturbia
Am I scaring you tonight
Your mind is in Disturbia
Ain't used to what you like
Disturbia
Disturbia

Bum bum be-dum bum bum be-dum bum
Bum bum be-dum bum bum be-dum bum
Bum bum be-dum bum bum be-dum bum
Bum bum be-dum bum bum be-dum bum
Writer/s: Brian Kennedy Seals, Christopher Maurice Brown, Andre Darrell Merritt, Robert L. Allen 
Publisher: Sony/ATV Music Publishing LLC, Universal Music Publishing Group, BMG Rights Management, Songtrust Ave

Lyrics licensed and provided by LyricFind

Courtesy of Songfacts

Fragments of the Unhinged

Fragments of the Unhinged

No longer knowing
what is going on in your head
I question my own sanity

Poor schmuck on the phone
Just experienced baptism by fire
How dare he cold call you?

Busy work making lunch
Pretending I don’t hear
Silently praying for the poor soul

The nurse rolls her eyes
Mirroring mine
She understands

Maybe time to ask for medication 
Tomorrow it will likely be my turn 
To bear the brunt of your anger

Call the doctor later
When the coast is clear
Don’t forget, don’t make excuses

Wondering how much longer
This can go on before
Someone other than you snaps


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Laura Bloomsbury is hosting D'Verse Poets tonight and she has
prompted us with Fragmented Poetry.

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Taboo

Taboo

Thoughts of you are taboo
and do not belong in my head
Yet there you live
always in my mind, confusing
unsettling, disturbing
An apparition giving relief
only when vanishing
With the never-ending promise
to return and haunt once more


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Prompts

Boo - Stream of Consciousness 
Apparition -  RDP

Ghost

Ghost

In fear my heart races 
as I pull the covers over my head
and pretend nothing has changed
What I saw was in my head
It is not real, but imagined

Through the bedroom window
I saw you standing there
Looking up at me
Music played through the air
carried along by a cool breeze

Shivering at the sight of you 
I recoiled, shrinking back to my bed
It is not you, it cannot be, I won’t let it be
I forbid you enter my thoughts
and invade my dreams 

Yet you taunt me with your presence
An apparition stinging old wounds
Still open, raw and unhealed
A ghost from my past
who refuses to die


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Linda Lee Lyberg is hosting Open Link Night at D'Verse Poets

Prompts

The Bedroom Window - RDP
Music - FOWC


Photo by Mads Schmidt Rasmussen on Unsplash

 

Riptide

Riptide

Swimming in your troubled waters
I am caught in a riptide
which pulls me from the safety of the shore
Struggling in its undertow and 
unable to hold on to you any longer
I feel you slipping through my arms
as I am carried away from you
and your tempestuous sea of anger
Not knowing where I will be taken
I am scared, my arms flailing to stay afloat
My heart yearns for an emotional life raft
to cling to before surrendering to the currents
I pray for peace wherever the tide takes me


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 Bjorn is hosting Open Link Night at D’Verse Poets
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