lightly dust
the surface
of my skin
with remnants
from the
bottom of
the rusty tin
may it irritate
and burn
so I might feel
some of the
hurt that does
not heal
scratch me
and scar me
with welts bloodied
reminders
remaining
of love sullied
patterns intricately
woven in cries
of pain
virtual reminders
of love that left
but a stain
Christine Bolton - Poetry for Healing ©
Word Prompts:
Lightly - SoCS Begin with an adverb
Virtual
Patterns
Image by Robert Cheaib from Pixabay
There was a sadness
enveloping her
that could not be shaken
She knew why
and could not share
for it would be mistaken
It was always there
just below the surface
A pool of emotions
One comment delivered
the wrong way
could spark an explosion
The neutral zone
in a divided family
The burden heavier by the day
Allowing others their comfort
While hers was ignored
Gnawing and clawing away
Suspended in limbo
Going neither this way or that
Appeasing each side
Tears shed only in private
Good for everyone, when
her feelings she’d hide
Not having a solution
for the awful predicament
She let it ride
One day someone
would notice
how hard she tried
An inability to be forthright
with the parties involved
Her plight repressive
Fearful to alienate
those she loved
Her symptoms now depressive
Christine Bolton - Poetry for Healing ©
In response to V.J's Weekly Challenge - In Between
Word Prompt:
Forthright
This week’s Song Lyric Sunday from Jim Adams has prompted us with Hurt/Pain/Agony/Suffer. I have chosen ‘Love The way You Lie’ by Eminem, featuring Rhianna. It’s full of pain and hurt. The collaboration of Eminem and Rihanna is heavily influenced by their past experiences in difficult relationships with their respective ex-lovers Kimberly Scott and Chris Brown.
I hope you enjoy it! Have a great Sunday!
“Love The Way You Lie”
(feat. Rihanna)
[Rihanna:]
Just gonna stand there and watch me burn
Well, that’s alright because I like the way it hurts
Just gonna stand there and hear me cry
Well, that’s alright because I love the way you lie
I love the way you lie
[Eminem:]
I can’t tell you what it really is
I can only tell you what it feels like
And right now, it’s a steel knife in my windpipe
I can’t breathe but I still fight while I can fight
As long as the wrong feels right it’s like I’m in flight
High off her love, drunk from her hate
It’s like I’m huffing paint and I love her the more I suffer, I suffocate
And right before I’m about to drown, she resuscitates me
She fucking hates me and I love it
“Wait! Where you going?”
“I’m leaving you!”
“No you ain’t. Come back”
We’re running right back
Here we go again
It’s so insane ’cause when it’s going good, it’s going great
I’m Superman with the wind at his back, she’s Lois Lane
But when it’s bad it’s awful, I feel so ashamed I snap
“Who’s that dude?”
“I don’t even know his name”
I laid hands on her, I’ll never stoop so low again
I guess I don’t know my own strength
[Rihanna:]
Just gonna stand there and watch me burn
Well, that’s alright because I like the way it hurts
Just gonna stand there and hear me cry
Well, that’s alright because I love the way you lie
I love the way you lie
I love the way you lie
[Eminem:]
You ever love somebody so much you can barely breathe when you’re with ’em
You meet and neither one of you even know what hit ’em
Got that warm fuzzy feeling
Yeah, them chills used to get ’em
Now you’re getting fucking sick of looking at ’em
You swore you’d never hit ’em; never do nothing to hurt ’em
Now you’re in each other’s face spewing venom in your words when you spit them
You push, pull each other’s hair, scratch, claw, bit ’em
Throw ’em down, pin ’em
So lost in the moments when you’re in them
It’s the rage that took over
It controls you both
So they say it’s best to go your separate ways
Guess that they don’t know you ’cause today that was yesterday
Yesterday is over, it’s a different day
Sound like broken records playing over but you promised her
Next time you’d show restraint
You don’t get another chance
Life is no Nintendo game
But you lied again
Now you get to watch her leave out the window
Guess that’s why they call it window pane
[Rihanna:]
Just gonna stand there and watch me burn
Well, that’s alright because I like the way it hurts
Just gonna stand there and hear me cry
Well, that’s alright because I love the way you lie
I love the way you lie
I love the way you lie
[Eminem:]
Now I know we said things, did things that we didn’t mean
And we fall back into the same patterns, same routines
But your temper’s just as bad as mine is
You’re the same as me
When it comes to love you’re just as blinded
Baby, please come back
It wasn’t you, baby it was me
Maybe our relationship isn’t as crazy as it seems
Maybe that’s what happens when a tornado meets a volcano
All I know is I love you too much to walk away though
Come inside, pick up your bags off the sidewalk
Don’t you hear sincerity in my voice when I talk
Told you this is my fault
Look me in the eyeball
Next time I’m pissed, I’ll aim my fist at the drywall
Next time? There won’t be no next time!
I apologize even though I know it’s lies
I’m tired of the games I just want her back
I know I’m a liar
If she ever tries to fucking leave again
I’mma tie her to the bed and set this house on fire
I’m just gonna
[Rihanna:]
Just gonna stand there and watch me burn
Well, that’s alright because I like the way it hurts
Just gonna stand there and hear me cry
Well, that’s alright because I love the way you lie
I love the way you lie
I love the way you lie
Writer(s): Marshall B. Iii Mathers, Alexander Junior Grant
Copyright: Songs Of Universal Inc., Shroom Shady Music
Light filtering through
the gauze-like sky
Silvery white
against the black of trees
The water calm
on the surface of the lake
Mist clearing too slowly
in the cool of the breeze
The drilling of an early
morning woodpecker
In the distance
was the only sound
Surroundings reflective
of what is most times bleak
A monochrome life
where happiness drowned
Living in grey tones
of black mixed with white
No clear definition
or so it seems
Waiting in shadows
where the sun never shines
No smiling faces
Or technicolor dreams
Is it safer here?
Where regret
Does not call
And one just exists
Does the barometric pressure
Suppress all hope
Suffocating wishes
In some ironic twist?
Closeted in darkness
Innocuous to influences
of disappointment
Where pain cannot reach
Will that light under a bushel
Ever burn so bright?
Lighting the way
To an inevitable breach
Christine Bolton - Poetry for Healing ©
Sue Vincent's Thursday Write/Photo
Challenge - Monchrome
Paula's Thursday Inspiration - Shadows
D’Verse Poets Open Link Night
Lackluster days
and insignificant nights
A respite from monotony
In the disconsolate lights
No rest for the wicked
another dismal chore
never a variance
identical to the one before
Expecting the worse
Hoping for the best
No exception to this rule
You can guess the rest
A lonely pointless existence
Sad as sad can be
Trapped on the hamster wheel
Running, running to be free
Finding no way out
of a miserable existence
Walking barefoot
on this path of passive resistance
Christine Bolton - Poetry for Healing ©
Lackluster
Identical
Respite
'Xp' - Expecting
Photo by Callie Morgan on Unsplash
Like a thief in the night
Stealing my fragility
My heart still weak
in its recovery
Destroying my stability
Empty promises
and broken dreams
Snatching my soul
Silently unravelling
my life at the seams
Kindness disguised
A wolf in sheep’s clothes
Preying on vulnerability
Inserting yourself into my life
Collecting my woes
I have become your possession
With no voice of my own
You manipulate my actions
and my every thought
All I want is to stand alone
Release me, I beg
From this obsessive control
Suffocating in your oppression
I can no longer breathe
Slowly drowning in this black hole
Christine Bolton - Poetry for Healing ©
Word Prompts:
Release
Thief
Photo by Dmitry Schemelev on Unsplash
Will your cold heart
ever begin to thaw?
Will it ever stop seeing
what had gone before?
Powerless and
Frozen in time
Robbed of dignity
A heinous crime
Retribution or retaliation
an impossible task
Lady justice
She wears the mask
The ghosts from your past
Still hidden from view
Never knowing, just guessing
What you went through
Christine Bolton - Poetry for Healing ©
Word Prompts:
Justice
Thaw
Power
When did this fairytale
become a nightmare?
How did the laughter
disappear into thin air
The chain of love
pulled until broken
Words of love
No longer spoken
Living in your chaos
Has taken its toll
Which end is up
as I fall into the hole
Anger the only emotion
Portrayed
Understanding now
Forever mislaid
The gentle heartbeat
Now a pounding in the chest
Anxiety devouring
A life much stressed
A diametric relationship
Opposite ends of the continuum
When all said and done
Little left of the residuum
Christine Bolton - Poetry for Healing ©
Word Prompts:
Devour
Diametric
Chain
The range of emotions
Disturbing and alarming
Unforeseen
Out of the blue
Possibly harming
Feelings cut deep
A woeful heart bleeding
Vagrant feelings
Homeless
and needing
A future in suspension
Spirit crying for healing
An empty shell
Cast aside
Forever haunting
Christine Bolton - Poetry for Healing ©
Word Prompts:
Haunting
Vagrant
Woe
Range
D'Verse Poets - Open Link Night - Hosted by Grace
Photo by Aarón Blanco Tejedor on Unsplash
An effigy of you
is burning in my head
Starved of attention
and gaining momentum
There is danger ahead
Another holiday
With sharing bread
Full of apprehension
Fraught with tension
Wishing I was dead
Insanity is doing
The same thing over again
Expecting different results
After all we are adults
Yet this is somehow in vain
Christine Bolton – Poetry for Healing ©
Word Prompts:
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